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My Experience: Depression & Anxiety Awareness Week (Montaja)

My Experience: Depression & Anxiety Awareness Week (Montaja)

This blog is part of a series from our Stand Together team to bring to light our experiences with depression and anxiety. May is Mental Health Month and it’s as good of a time as ever to end stigma by talking about our experiences and spreading awareness. You are not alone-we’re with you. We’re in this together.

I first learned about depression when I met it face-to-face. Growing up, I struggled with thoughts about death and my rocky childhood experiences did not help with my mental wellness. The change in pace, constant moving, and inconsistency made me turn inward, keeping my thoughts and feelings to myself.

This trend followed me throughout school and stopped me from seeking the help I so desparately needed. I became a master at masking my feelings and struggles; with theater performance my college degree, it wasn’t hard to do.

Knowing all along something wasn’t right, but being afraid to actually ask about it, really kept me suffering in silence for a long time. Growing up, I didn’t have access to conversations about taking care of my mental health, let alone know who to reach out to for that kind of support. After finishing college and not having anything left to keep me running and distracted, I came crashing down into emotional distress.

Life started to make sense when I found out that I had been living with major depression disorder. I did have to work out my own stigma, accepting my diagnosis and accepting the fact that I needed help-and it was okay to do so. Talk therapy has helped me process and manage my recurring thoughts, fears, and shame. When I don’t feel okay, I allow myself to feel those feelings and have a cry if I need to. I also turn to humor, art, cooking, and writing to help me cope and thrive.

a Mixed Media Collage I created

My experience with depression and anxiety has helped me become who I am and advocate for myself and other. The best accomplishment I have made is becoming emotionally aware. I am still building my community of support and true self-care. I get closer and closer to arriving at joy each day. I credit this to the hard work I’ve done in therapy and my continued practice of mindfulness.

Talk about your feelings to an adult you trust and remember that your feelings don’t dictate your future-you do. A diagnosis is just a diagnosis; you are a ‘person-first.’ You can go on to do amazing things despite having a challenging condition. Take care of yourself and enjoy the small things (like tacos and koalas!). It can get better.

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Minority Mental Health Month-Guest blog by TA Montaja Simmons

Minority Mental Health Month-Guest blog by TA Montaja Simmons


I do not know about you but I need a break!

Like a real break- specifically for my sanity and health and the reaffirming of my humanity,

Because clearly doing anything while Black is….

Well you get the point. If you don’t- Evelyn for the internets (@eveeeezy) explains it best.

Check out her “Call in Black” on YouTube:

Besides seeing people that look like you portrayed negatively in the media you also have to deal with your own personal woes….like mental health and wellness!


Society marginalizes people by gender, religion/faith, sexual orientation, intellectual status, class, disability and the biggest one of all RACE.

We forget that minorities deal with all of these “others” while being ‘othered.’

Unfortunately, just race alone can cause a whole host of worries.

I have a few things to keep in mind when living with mental illness while Black:



The more we talk about mental health, the more the stigma will dissolve. The more we talk about mental health in the minority community, the more real and human we become, dismantling barriers and stereotypes.  We don’t have to be “strong” all the time.

Mental health is not a race thing; however, minorities deal with mental health issues very differently. Trusting professionals and family plays a big part in feeling safe enough to get help without being label as crazy, weak or a criminal.

Silence is shame! Please continue to be an advocate!



Just like not being silent, we must also know where to go when we need help! We should have five people we can lean on in times of crisis. These are the makings a strong support system.

Do not wait until you are in a crisis to reach out to your support. As a minority, the world says you deserve what happens to you, be grateful you’re alive and pick yourself up by your bootstraps. It is crucial to have people in your corner reassuring your greatness and valuing your life.



This is very important for me, one because hope is the backbone of recovery. Even deeper for me is God. I am a believer in Christ.  In the Black community one my be ridiculed on both sides. Either you’re a fool to believe, or you don’t believe enough. Seeing a therapist, taking medicine if/when needed is not a sign of weakness or lack of faith. In fact, it is taking action- and faith without works is dead. Whatever you put your faith in continue to believe in it, because this is YOUR journey to recovery.



Disconnect, decompress and treat yourself: mind, body and soul with care!

Please, please keep your wellness in mind.

Calling in mental health days are becoming a common practice in the work place.

Who knows maybe “Calling in Black” will follow.


Disclaimer: Black is what I identify as; this message is for all minorities! #minoritymentalhealthawarenessmonth


***Submission from Montaja Simmons***


(Stand Together staff disclaimer: This blog is the opinion of one of our staff members. Stand Together believes it is important to represent all individuals, regardless of race, ethnicity, gender, religion, etc. so that everyone has a voice. This is just one voice in our conversations around mental health. We hope to hear and share many others.)

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